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That Gamer Guy
06 May 2008 @ 10:47 am
Do you want to know what question I hate hearing, other than "Can you recommend another place where I can get it cheaper?"

"Then why do they sell it online cheaper?"

You want to know why? Because they prey on the other game shops that go belly up due to financial issues, and have to sell of their assets at a loss because too many people in their area shopped online for something they had reommended to them at my store. Because the online seller doesn't give a rat's ass if they sold you a good product, just so long as your credit's good. Because they don't have to employ anyone in your community, and just work out of some hole in a wall.

Gaming stores are more often than not owned and operated independantly by people that hardly ever see a sizible return on the investment of time and money. They have rent to pay, employees to support, game events to run, and a space that they do their best to help make you feel comfortible. Not all online retail is evil, but next time you rant about the state of your local economy and the decline of the independant buisness, ask yourself what you've done to help the people who work hard to support you locally.
 
 
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That Gamer Guy
So... I got to see Iron Man last night at one of the advance showings here in the city, and I'm still feeling quite pleased with my money spent! Robert Downey Jr. is fantastic in his role, and well surpassed the expectations I had for him here. I also was expecting a great performance, since I like a lot of his work, but this was just such a great piece of acting from him.

The pacing was great in how the action and the development of Tony Stark is shown in the movie, and the movie isn't afraid to laugh at itself and superhero conventions in general without doing a disservice to the original material it's based on.

Now, at the same time, I got a chance to reflect on what kind of community dynamic geeks get when they gather together. Conventions, the game shop, movie premieres; all of these are examples of times when I see people that barely know each other just stopping to talk ideas and experiences. With nothing in common other than a mutual interest in a pasttime, I struck up a talk with others that I just wouldn't have sought out. Writers, directors, past superhero movies... we all were just waiting to see the movie, and being able to talk with others that we knew weren't going to turn their noses up at us for "Just talking about comic book movies" seemed to make us all feel a bit more relaxed.

And this happens all over in geek culture. Many of us are social misfits when we talk to the jocks and American Idol fans, but once we know that we can talk bout our passions without getting shoved into a locker like in high school, many of us open up with some surprising information.

So, thoughts from the audiance? What was your greatest geek conversation? Do you have different experiences at Geek Gatherings? Speak up, talk it out, and thanks for sharing.
 
 
Current Mood: energetic
 
 
 
That Gamer Guy
As I sit at work, awaiting either customers that are likely out enjoying this horridly beautiful weather (I say this because now that plants are blooming in my area, allergy season begins for me) or calls from distributors looking to fill an order I just placed, my mind wanders back to one of the basic products of my trade: Role Playing Games.

Beyond the upcoming 4th Edition D&D, there are quite a number of games on the market, more than some seem to realize at times. I'm not just talking the independently published titles, but nice hardcover books that smell intoxicatingly good just after printing and are pulled from the boxes that get shipped to us. As I sit here, I count at least 14 different major systems carried by us in the non-d20 shelves of RPGs, and all of them have a different appeal to different gamers. But one of the major things I wonder is how do people take Setting into account when deciding if they want to play or not.

For example: World of Darkness in it's newest incarnation has done quite well with it's new version of Changeling, however the people at White Wolf are attempting to keep the concept of Metaplot to a minimum in the game. They have plenty of setting for the various supernatural beings in their world, but little context to place games within.

Now compare that to two other popular RPGs: GURPS and Shadowrun.

GURPS is a truly universal rules set for running RPGs. It provides hard mechanics to simulate various things like space travel, magic, combat, etc. as well as a framework to build whatever character you want on a point-buy system. HOWEVER, it has little to no actual "Setting". There are books published to use the GURPS rules with a setting in mind, but this is in addition to the core book one needs to play the game.

Shadowrun has had continuous plot running for the last nearly-20 years with campaign events affecting the course of their history and their sourcebooks written as both fiction and rules material. The current edition's mechanics have taken a more slimmed-down approach than in past editions, but many still hold that the game stands up with these changes and I personally feel that many of these changes were made for all the right reasons. However, if you buy Shadowrun, you will be playing Shadowrun. The history and concepts are so interwoven with the rules, that it is quite difficult to outright change the game to something radically different (not impossible, just difficult).


So what do you, the readers, prefer? How do you decide that the presentation of an RPG's setting (or lack thereof) effects your decision to play? Would you rather build a setting from scratch and customize it to your very particular needs? Do you enjoy exploring a new universe with new options you could never predict? I want to hear some opinions, and would love to hear some examples from your own gaming.  Tell me about your favorite (or least favorite) games in reguards to setting, what you love seeing, and anything else that comes to mind.
 
 
Current Mood: contemplative
 
 
That Gamer Guy
04 April 2008 @ 10:58 am
Pardon the lack of focus here right now, but I felt it was time to just write something without it being a customer service rant or some bit of ubergeekery. I dunno... weird sleep schedule and recent cycles through the 80's Edition of Guitar Hero puts the mind in strange places.

Anyway, been pondering my writing lately. Not the stuff I do in RP, or what rare articles I can get done on game reviews here and elsewhere (though I should do another one of those here again soon... leave a message with a request if you can think of something), but the stuff I wanted to be able to do as a job. Yes, I know the title is "Tales of a Game Store Clerk", but I'm sure you realize that even I didn't expect to be doing this for the rest of my life.

When I was in college, I had my future narrowed down to either Special Effects work or Writing. Second option became more and more important when I found that I had no artistic skill beyond sculpture and creative prose. So, I settled on film study and psychology courses to help me decide if I wanted to "make a living" in writing. My father still makes jokes about that decision, since he hates journalists from his days working as an attorney to the state government and knows how hard it can be to get established as a novelist. But, I know I want to work in entertainment. In one way or another, I have always done better when I help other people have a good time.

But my writing style needs to be polished, and I need to settle on some sort of genre to at least begin getting some samples written. Game companies do a lot of outsourcing to freelance writers, so maybe some suggestions from my readers on settings to pay attention to would be nice (see folks, I'm even making this interactive!). Also need some samples of non-fictional writing and impartial writing I would imagine.

So why the stressing over this now? Well, I did have a number of writing samples on my laptop, but about a month ago it finally gave up and decided it didn't like cooperating with its own power cord. Now I'm wishing I had backed it up to the desktop I share with my S.O. and at the same time trying to think if what I had was really all that good.

Don't mistake this for the standard LJ "Woe to the artist" post, please. Unlike many artists I have known in the past, I have no issue selling out for enough money and I don't have grand illusions on my current skill level. I suppose I'm just pondering my future out loud, and looking to see if anyone else wants to chime in.

Comments are welcome, and hopefully will help get this still growing-up geekboy to a new stage in his professional life.
 
 
Current Mood: contemplative
 
 
That Gamer Guy
14 February 2008 @ 07:28 am
Brief journal post from me on today, Valentine's Day.

I don't hate it, except for a few notible years where certain things had gone wrong. However, this year is a bit lonely. Through no malice or fault of anyone, I'm seperated from my girlfriend this year. She's in Hawaii on a Mother/Daughter vacation while I'm here.

Now... I am lonely. She and I are going to be together for something special when she gets back, but today we are nowhere close to each other. However, I am not pitying myself, and I'm not raging against the season and the commercialism. I am, however, remembering all those years when it was just me.

Valentine's Day may be hyped for lovers, but for those of you without one I also suggest looking at it to be a day for friendships. Those connections are something to be remembered, and celebrated as well. Dinner, drinks, movies... if you have others in your life that you feel you can count on through the thick and thin, offer today to just do something nice to show them how much it means.

I've lost more than a few friends in my life for various reasons, but I don't want to lose any more because I forgot to do what I could, even if it's just telling them that they matter.

Happy Valentine's Day to everyone who reads this, and I hope you no matter what you find something to make you happy today.
 
 
Current Mood: contemplative
 
 
 
That Gamer Guy
07 February 2008 @ 01:01 pm
A quick post to give some people a bit of a chuckle, or maybe just lose me some readers.

As you can tell from my journal title, I am a game store clerk. We deal in non-electronic games only; like Dungeons & Dragons, Settlers of Catan, and Warhammer 40,000 miniatures. We're a pretty extensive place, and independantly owned, so we have a lot of leeway in how we conduct ourselves. Must we be professional? Yes, absolutely. Must we kiss the boots of everyone that walks in here? Oh no... absolutely not.

But how do you snub the people you would like to never have to talk to while still keeping them paying you the money for goods you provide? Well... a few years ago I came up with the perfect solution, one which was used to it's most brilliant today. It is for this reason that I will share one of my secret weapons against the worst of the worst in gaming.

The hobby games industry has a huge amount of companies that want to do buisness with the retail location; some are fantastic in their support (Fantasy Flight Games and Privateer Press are two of the tops in my book), others treat most retailers as unworthy peons that should be greatful to carry their products (Vajra Enterprises and Games Workshop, I'm looking at you). But the ordering and tracking of stock in these companies is a near-constant job, even if you do buisness with distribution companies (for those not in the know, Distributors act a warehouse system to buy from many of these companies in bulk and then sell piece-by-piece to retail). But there are those companies that want to handle all of their customers, and are a great bit of work.

So, now armed with that knowledge, I present you with my solution for dealing with stereotypically annoying gamers that do nothing more than reinforce how many people see Anime and Gaming fans:

I invented a new game company.

It exists nowhere but in the minds and actions of myself, my boss, and my coworkers. "Misdirection Entertainment" (not the name we use, but it helps illustrate my point) handles so many different aspects of the industry, and provides so very many related essentials to what we sell, that we can never ignore the paperwork associated with them. Unfortunatly; their shipments are always coming in at the most inopportune times and their stock reports so involved that, quite often, we have other coworkers come up to us in the middle of those conversations about the latest season of Naruto-DBZ-Inuyasha (which we explained that we do not watch) or the progress of the amazing homebrew that was created to bring Half-dragon Jedi into Forgotten Realms and reshape the realms as Gods, and report a sudden emergency relating to this company.

This, of course, means that every availible staff member must now either be looking a massive amount of accounting info up on the computer system, be hand checking all the shelves, or in the back trying to find lost shipments. Yes, we have time to answer questions about product and sell items, but we must be professionals and get that darned Misdirection Entertainment work done before the end of the shift.

Is this a cruel thing to do to socially innept individuals who may just be excited about their fandom? Maybe; but it's also cruel to subject another person to a conversation that makes them wish they could gnaw off their own limbs just to spare themselves another moment of listening. More often than not I'm more than happy to just talk to my customers and learn about what they are doing, but I have a job to do, and I'm not paid to humor every single candidate for [info]bad_rpers_suck.
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That Gamer Guy
28 January 2008 @ 09:13 pm
So, I know that there are hardcore fans of the Warhammer 40K minis game, and I know many of those people will swear that it's the greatest minis game for it's vast universe and it's massive support. I've never enjoyed it myself, as it's just not my kind of setting and I just could never get behind the massive amount of rules dictating every aspect of how things happened. Plus, even with my store discount, I find it stupid how much I would have to spend just to play.

Many of these people were also looking forward to the release of the "Dark Heresy" RPG from Black Industries, Sabertooth Games, and their parent company Games Workshop. 4 years in development, a year delayed from it's first announced release, and it came out this last friday.

The game sold out this weekend almost everywhere that could get it in time, and was hailed as a success by most I spoke to.

This news article greeted me today at work.

You see that Warhammer fans? That's Games Workshop and Black Industries giving you the finger. And they'll keep doing it so long as you keep coming back to them like abused Significant Others. The company could give a rat's ass about how much you like their universe, all they want is for you to eep pumping money into their overpriced game. And don't you dare start pointing to me and whining about how much you pay my salery, because you really don't. The buying terms for this crap is aweful for almost all buisnesses that are not directly owned by these jerks, and most of us barely break even when we subtract overhead and other fees.

I hate Games Workshop, and hold that they will never learn their lesson about how they treat their customers until enough of you switch to something else. Beleive me, there are plenty of other games to play, without nearly as much expense and constant edition screw-overs.
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Current Music: Prodigy - Smack My Bitch Up
 
 
That Gamer Guy
28 January 2008 @ 06:20 pm
97%ALCOHOLIC


Yup... beat [info]lawni_blackbird and [info]madhack .

I do not have a problem. I'm a professional.
 
 
That Gamer Guy
25 January 2008 @ 11:58 am
So I prepaired a Roulade last night for the first time. It was this tender beef wraped in a spiral pattern around feta and uncooked baby spinach. Pan fried it for a nice brown on both sides and minimal seasoning, then tossed it in the oven to finish with some olive oil brushed on top and some basil sprinkled on.

The butcher is going to be seeing me a lot more often, I think.
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Current Mood: hungry
 
 
That Gamer Guy
11 December 2007 @ 01:36 pm
Welcome to another infrequent installment into a glimpse at my life. Come on in, won't you?

Well, it's obviously that time of season where shoppers are out in force, and I myself find my workload overflowing. Is it stressful? Hell yeah. Is it worth it? ...well, I'm still waiting to see. But I will say this: I hear no end of people hating on the Big Box stores. That, my dear readers, is my Christmas Miracle.

But what is doing good this season? As always, Settlers of Catan and Carcassonne are the top picks of games to get non-gamers. Also topping the list is Infernal Contraption, the HeroCard line of games, Ticket to Ride and Cineplexity. Yup, it'll be a happy holidays for many a gamer and soon-to-be gamer.


And what of "Real Life"? If you are asking that question... well, you obviously have never done full-time work during the holidays in retail, have you?


The Girl and I have been geeking out with the new big-screen we got for a very good deal. No really, it's almost criminal what we paid for this 47 inch screen. She's watching: Princess Bride, The Musketeer, and Oceans 11 thru 13. I'm watching: Godzilla Vs. ANYTHING, Predator, and Indiana Jones. And we watched the Tin Man miniseries on Sci-Fi together. Yes, I'm also a good enough boyfriend to have been watching her movie choices with her.

Guardians has been going well (even if all I can do lately is IRC and not the Forum RPs), and it turns out I'm not a writing hack when it came to my Supervillain storyarc and my current World of Darkness RP plotline. As always, I find myself thankful that so many in the community are willing to listen to ideas I bounce off of them. Hopefully, the Gamer's End RP Setting will get more attention from me as the Holiday winds up.


Will I post more often to my journal now that I've made this update? Hopefully. I've been trying to lay off the complaints that come with my job and focus more on living as of late, so things should become less hectic. But until next time, folks, keep gaming.
 
 
Current Mood: amused
Current Music: Oi to the World (No Doubt)
 
 
That Gamer Guy
20 September 2007 @ 10:53 am
OK, so I've had this insane cold for the last week. Coughing, sneezing, headaches, THE WHOLE NINE YARDS!

I've been trying as many different things as I could to help shake it. The cold medicine capsules have been tossed back like candy (in well controlled intervals... but still... yeah, you get the point), I've been chugging V8 and immunity boost fruit smoothies from a very reliable source, and been resting as much as I can while not at work. Hell, I've even slept out in the living room on the big comfy couch, so Joan wouldn't have to hear me coughing up junk in the middle of the night.

But what do you think was the food that made me feel best?

Miso soup, fried japanese potato cakes, vegitable tempura, spicy tuna roll, and two pieces of red snapper from the japanese resturaunt nearby. They do takeout, and I am thankful.

I had friends bring me miso when I was sick before, but damn, this made me feel better.

Thinking of trying it again, but without the red snapper for the sake of experimentation and for the health of my wallet.
 
 
Current Mood: sick
 
 
That Gamer Guy
01 September 2007 @ 08:18 pm
This is going to be a part of my "New Stuff from GenCon" semi-series... enjoy


OK, assorted Game Geeks, Netizens, and fellow Nerdlings... it has come to my attention that many of you see board games as "plain" and "boring".  Many wish to only bask in either the cathode glow of video games, or theatrical dice rollng of your RPG group.  To you, I say "Shame".

You don't need to have the intense investment of the Collectible Game or Pewter Miniatures to seek enjoyment away from these bastions of gamerness!  Monopoly, Life, Sorry... these are the Spam and Tang of the Board Game world, and what you should be looking for is the Ribeye and Good Booze!

"Last Night on Earth" may not be an expensive steak, but I most certainly would rate it as a well prepaired bisque.  A bisque with cannibalistic brain eating zombies... which is now making me regret my line of food analogies.

Anyway, in the tradition of some of the best that Zombie movies have given us, "Last Night on Earth" pits a rag-tag group of small town heroes against the oncoming rush of the risen dead.  If you choose to take on the task of Hero, you will find that the game does a great job of making sure that characters only survive if they work together.  Heroes move faster, and can take more hits than the average Zombie, as well as have access to weapons that might be found in different buildings.  Hero players will also find cards that they can play on each other to help in the fight against shambling corpses.  This is especially important since in most scenarios, the Zombies win when two of the heroes get taken out.

Zombie players... well, they have the same goals most zombies have.  Eat brains, make more zombies, and go where they aren't wanted.  Where heroes have to search building for cards and events that will help them, the undead horde just refills it's four card allotment at the begining of their turn.  Zombie cards allow for bigger changes to the game, and act as nasty surprise to spring on those stubborn humans.

Combat is easy, streamlined, and with the right amound of variation to make things interesting.  I sometimes questioned the balance of the dice provided, but a few bucks will get that corrected in my set with some stuff that's also bigger.

So, in the end, a great use for $50.  High replay factor, open design for future expansion, and great balance between the two sides makes for a fun time when playing.  I do suggest new players get a chance at playing the zombies against people that have played a few games, however I haven't had much time to really chack on the balance of that impression.

Otherwise, until next time, keep gaming folks
 
 
Current Mood: awake
Current Music: Doctor Who Marathon
 
 
That Gamer Guy
21 August 2007 @ 07:47 pm
So yes, World Wide Web, I still live.

There's a few reasons I haven't written lately. Primary amoung them was the loss of my grandfather, and the fallout after that. Yes, I know there are many that would give me well wishes on that (and have elsewhere), but I just wasn't ready to open up about that or the rest of my family issues.

As far as work... well, as always the world of gaming is a-changing. With GenCon news having hit the community, I offer these thoughts:

D&D 4th Edition = Hasbro Greed
Come on, this is crap what they're doing. Subscription fees for tabletop gaming? Sound like someone's pissy over the failure that D&D Online is.  Don't let the hype fool you, Hasbro is a toy company, and will keep perpetuating an unbalanced system because it sells more books that way.

Fantasy Flight Games: Late to finsh, but always worth it.
Tannhauser, StarCraft the Boardgame, Grimm, Anima... trust me, these will be worth the wait, and you should see what these are as soon as possible

Catalyst Game Labs: Third Time's a Charm!
Shadowrun has yet another company, and once more it's composed of all the current game staff.  Why did this happen?  Well, I think it's because they're tired of being hitched to Topps and their idiotic money decisions.  Or maybe they don't want to keep having to delay due to WizKids trying out yet -another- failure clix game.  So far, they're doing great, and I encourage others to check out the work for themselves.

[EDIT 9/1/07]  Per a post from Mr. Adam Jury, I would like to retract certain statements, since I do want to present correct information whe my opinions came to wrong conclusions.  Apparently, WizKids & Topps were not responsible for the slowdown as I had suspected, and I apologize for that misrepresentation.  I will hold, that Catalyst, and everyone that's working for them, are doing some fantastic work with these recent releases.  Augmentation is a fantastic update for the 2070 timeline, and I look forward to seeing more.  Thank you, Adam, for setting me straight.
 
 
Current Location: Living Room
Current Mood: tired
 
 
That Gamer Guy
08 February 2007 @ 01:53 pm
This is just a short little entry into the blog to see what people might think;

So, it's been a while since LJ introduced the "Plus" accounts, and I'm wondering what peoples thoughts are on it.  Is it worth going for with the extra benefits?  Is it annoying to work with?  Drop me a line on your opinions.
 
 
That Gamer Guy
18 January 2007 @ 11:53 pm

(Blows dust off of the virtual furnishings...)

*muttering* Man, did I let this place go to hell while I was gone....

Ah, there you are!

Hello to everyone out there in LJ land!  I'm back from a Glorious three-month stretch of stress, flu, holiday retail, and uppity co-workers.  But it wasn't all a glorious land of professional responsibilities and self-perceived shortcomings, I also experienced some of those times of "happiness" and "goodwill towards others" I keep hearing about.  So, as I work on getting this place back into shape, I'll leave you with a summary of events (in no particular order) from my time away:

#1  One Flu Over the Cuckoo’s Nest
For the past few years, I had gotten through the worst of the "flu seasons" with nothing but a few sniffles.  I had gotten to a point where I believed my immune system was being bombarded with so much on a daily basis that it had gained an almost titanium-like strength.

 

Apparently, Titanium is quite brittle under the right circumstances.

 

Anyway, my constitution failed during Day Two of my End-of-2006 celebration (starts on December 29th and goes through January 2nd.  Trust me, it just works.) in such a way as to make me think that I had one too many shots.  It’s a truly agonizing experience to feel a next-day hangover WHILE shivering and sneezing from the Flu and a nasal infection; a trifecta of pain that my doctor had never before seen all at once.

 

“Anne” was the sweetest girl to me during that time (even if the best she can do in the kitchen is microwave soup), and was even willing to explain quite a few times to me just how incredibly pathetic I looked.  I, in turn, could only sniffle, nod, and motion for more blankets.

 

 

#2  Gaming for a Good Cause
I’ve done a variety of volunteer work in my life; Children’s Museum, Boy Scouts, and helping with my high school’s daycare program just to name a few.  It’s not a regular thing for me, but I do like lending a hand to good causes when I can make a personal difference.

 

This year, our shop was able to put together a charity event for Toys for Tots, complete with donations from some of the best companies in the hobby game industry.  And what did we do at our charity event?

 

Gaming.  Lots and lots of gaming.

 

RPGs, board games, minis, card games… we even got some advance previews of some of the season’s hottest releases.  I was there for 10 hours running quite a few of the events, teaching new games, getting photos of the Marines picking up our donation, and generally getting a great feel for the gamer community in my area.

 

I’m looking forward to doing it all over again next year.

 

 

#3  Hell is Other People (that also work retail)
Do I sometimes obsess over details?  Is “sometimes” an understatement?  The answer to both of these is quite probably YES.  But I also have never asked anything of anybody I work with that is more than I myself would or have done.

 

Nothing brings my faith in humanity down more than listening to people complain that work would be so much easier if expectations were just lowered.  After all, that work can just be done later, just like we said six months ago, right?  And why do we have to do this stuff every day?

 

Not everyone I work with is saying this, and those that do aren’t even saying it all the time; but when someone complains that I don’t share enough of the responsibilities with them, I’d like to first see them finish some of the basic everyday procedures before I can trust them to finish tasks which are more important.

 

 

#4  If You Can’t Take the Heat…
Between the craziness of work and the complications that Real Life loves to throw in my way (as it seems to love to do to us all), I found some time to indulge in my second-favorite hobby: Cooking.

 

The kitchen of my apartment has taken on a Mediterranean flair with an easy Feta Chicken dish I threw together recently.  Nothing special, just boneless chicken breasts rubbed down with olive oil and basil, wrapped with prosciutto, and laid out in a pan with feta generously crumbled over the top.  There are some variations I’m working on, such as stuffing the breasts with the Feta or adding some aromatics to the pan to cook with the meat, but as it is right now the dish is tender and moist and goes great with a white wine.

 

If you want to try it out for yourself, just put the ingredients together as above and bake at 325 degrees for about 35 minutes.  If you want to make it ahead of time you can prep the dish in a disposable foil pan and freeze for a few days.  Just let it thaw for an hour or so and bake for the first 20 minutes with foil on top of the pan, then bake for another 20 – 30 minutes as normal without the foil.

 

 

#5  If the Computer is my Friend, why does it keep breaking up with me?
My trusty laptop is not dead, but it has gotten to the point where a desktop has been secured to act as the main machine in the apartment.  This has signaled to my laptop to glitch and wig out even more.

 

Vapula (my pet name for the laptop) will be refurbished into my writing machine primarily, doubling duty as my GM Screen o’ Doom.  The Doctor (as in Who) is becoming my Gaming/Writing/Media machine.  I’m privileged to have 3 months free on EVE, so I’m trying that out at the moment.

 
 
Current Location: My Apartment
Current Mood: contemplative
Current Music: Almost Over Now - N.E.R.D.
 
 
That Gamer Guy
03 October 2006 @ 07:29 pm
I hate how long my job is keeping me away from my social obligations.

So, to clear things up, I'm not dead. In fact, I am right now having to pick up the slack from the recent firing of two employees.

Who and why? The assistant manager, and one of our better staff members. Two guys I trusted. Two guys I thought were better than others who have worked at the shop in the past. The why is a complicated thing, but at it's heart is a severe betrayal of trust.

So now, I work hard to make sure that the betrayal will not do the damage that was being planned. It's draining, and very hard. I sometimes question whether I'm up to the challenge, or if others think I'm capable. I've been accused of being overly pessimistic, egotistical, unneccisarily worried, and even of being a hard worker.

Each week becomes less stressful than the last, and I'm hoping I will find my way back to being social (instead of being a lush and constantly drinking Martinis in an attempt to accelerate relaxation).

I'm trying to be honest with myself, and with all of you. I'm not handling this extra stress well, especially considering how I've lost quite a few friends already. But I'm refusing to cave in or give up, maybe to a point where I'm not being rational.
 
 
Current Mood: tired
 
 
That Gamer Guy
18 September 2006 @ 09:52 pm


The internets rule, and I know I MUST buy this CD as soon as it's available!

(EDIT to use the file uploaded by Al himself. Seriously, if you enjoy this, support the artist. Here's Al's Blog.)
 
 
 
 
 

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